Saturday, June 25, 2005

Twilight Vigil


I should be sleeping right now…but I can’t. It’s not especially late or anything, I just need to try and rest since I have to get up so early tomorrow. I think there must be three kinds of insomnia…insomnia of the heart (when you’re in love), the mind (when you’re thought filled), and the body (when you’re just not tired). I’m guessing tonight is all about insomnia of the mind. I want to sleep…but why sleep when I could do something utterly unproductive, like document my thoughts and classifications of insomnia? I guess there could be a fourth class…not wanting to sleep just because you don’t want to…insomnia of the will. Of course, somniphobia and hypnophobia, the fear of sleep,
cannot be ruled out of this matter. And speaking of irrational fears…you know what’s nuts? Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia is the fear long words…now isn’t that just plain cruel? If a person has a fear of long words how could a psychologist possibly tell them they have hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia without completely freaking them out of their mind? What a terrible name for such a disorder. That’d be like referring to arachnophobia as “thairza-masiv-spydur-on-yurface-O-phobia”. Just doesn’t make sense. I really should be sleeping right now.

Now I lay me down to sleep...
BR80

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Thanks a Million Chuck!


Wow, comments much obliged
Charles! I really appreciate your thoughts. You're a good friend. So I had to give you an honorary "shout-out", as the kids say. Saaaay now, wait just a minute...is “shout-out” supposed to be hyphenated like that? Ohhhh, what the hay...fun is fun!

Domo arigato,
BR80

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

BR80's Life: The Soundtrack


Click HERE to download the entire soundtrack as one big self-extracting "ZIP" file.


01 - Main theme "The Crow" - DJ Food

02 - Opening credits "Look Up" - Zero 7

03 - Waking up "This is the Day" - The The

04 - Average day "No Rain" - Blind Melon

05 - Secret love "Lady Of Dreams" - Vast

06 - First date "Big Me" - Foo Fighters

07 - Romantic scene "Sleepwalking" - Modest Mouse

08 - Falling in love "The Moon is Down" - Explosions in the Sky

09 - Training Montage "Butterflies and Hurricanes" - Muse

10 - Fight scene "Sabotage" - Beastie Boys

11 - Breaking up "Nothingman" - Pearl Jam

12 - Getting back together "Float On" - Modest Mouse

13 - Life's okay "The Way We Get By" - Spoon

14 - Mental breakdown "Frontier Psychiatrist" - The Avalanches

15 - Driving "Tunnel" - The Dining Rooms

16 - Learning a lesson "Rebellion (Lies)" - The Arcade Fire

17 - Deep thought "Who Am I" - Peter Kruder

18 - Flashback "Cutup" - Fridge

19 - Partying "Ninja Rap" - Vanilla Ice

20 - Happy dance "Peaches" - The Presidents Of The United States Of America

21 - Regretting "Me and a Gun" - Tori Amos (Xerxes Remix)

22 - Long night alone "Six Days At The Bottom Of The Ocean" - Explosions in the Sky

23 - Death scene "Don't Fear The Reaper" - Gus

24 - Closing credits "God Gave Rock and Roll to You" - KISS

Composed by:
BR80

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Matters of Life and Death

Some think if a murderer kills...they themselves deserve to die. Some feel if one loses the capacity to think, to breathe, to beat their own heart, they should die. Many feel if a pregnancy occurs, a legitimate course of action is one of ceasing the formation of life. Some think if a thief steals they deserve to die. Some feel if one is mentally handicapped, unable to reason, to understand, they should die. Some might agree...if a genetic defect, such as having only nine fingers, is found in an unborn child...it's formation of life should be ended...it should die. To me, what’s most frightening about these ethical issues and practices is not the practices themselves, but the question of who makes the final decision on who is to be worthy of life. I don’t care if you're pro-choice or all for euthanasia, you still have to admit…it could all go completely the other wayI mean, maybe someday it’ll be O.K. to kill someone with a mental disorder, which…as disturbing as it may seem…seems to be the path we’re heading down (and the path we've already gone)…because it all depends on who’s in charge, on who sets the criteria.

"I am prepared to die, but there is no cause for which I am prepared to kill."
- Mahatma Gandhi

So all of you “pro-everything” people be conscious of the fact that whatever issue your fighting for today could be taken to the extreme tomorrow. And I imagine in the future the reasons they’ll think of and the criteria they’ll devise are endless in terms of who deserves to live and who deserves to die…yet I'll never see them as reasons, but only as excuses. Killing and the cessation of developing life are inexcusable by my books. And perhaps those that agree with me will never be heard for what the underlying truth is…that being: humanity is in no position to determine who deserves the right of life...not now, not ever.

Alive and well,
BR80

Saturday, June 04, 2005

On Honesty:


I suppose those that feel I dispute their every word are those that continually lie to me. Is it any wonder that a lack of trust is the result when lies are all you hear?