The Sum of Our Parts

Maybe I’m unromantic in thinking this, but I never really thought love would be the answer to: “What’s going to make me happy in this life?” Aristophanes (an ancient Greek comedian/philosopher) figured that man and woman were once joined together as one spectacular being…so spectacular that the gods themselves felt threatened by these beings and decided to split them in two…two fragments, two genders…man and woman…which is why we seek our other half, so that we may feel “whole” again…united as one being. Crazy, hey? I thought so; since it doesn’t seem to reflect how I feel about the whole “love” thing. Yet, it seems to be what the entire planet wants to believe; and maybe I want to believe it too. But I can’t allow myself to think something so reckless. All be it, it would be a simple answer to everything if it were true.

"Love is simply the name for the desire and the pursuit of the whole." -Aristophanes, 450-385 BC

Imagine if all you had to do is fall in love with another person to feel whole. With that logic I should be the most wholly complete person on the planet! I fall in love and my brain falls out of my skull. I’ve got to love smarter. I’ve got to recite this religiously: the answers to my questions do not lie in any person, no matter how much I love them. It’s self-centered to think that my own romantic satisfaction grants me a greater understanding of this world around me and the people within it.

Wholly,
BR80

Lesson of the Day

I’ve discovered that the line between friendly and creepy is uncomfortably thin.

-BR80

Shock 'N' Burn

With no texture to voltage or fire the closest one gets to feeling either is by shock and burn. I find that strange; strange that there are some things in this world we are unable to feel without pain as the only result. Love: as equally painful as is equally intangible; unable to feel it in itself, we are left only with its effects...its many shocks and burns.

Ow,
BR80

My Mortality

I don't know if actually reading a tally on your expected years to live (avg. age 77) is depressing or impressive. I’d like to think it's neither…seeing how, in the end, all the numbers could be wrong…it might be over in 2005 for all I know. “Like a thief in the night”, right? Well, whatever this means…it makes me think.

BORN in 1985 A.D.,
1986 = 1yrs old, 1987 = 2, 1988 = 3, 1989 = 4, 1990 = 5, 1991 = 6, 1992 = 7, 1993 = 8, 1994 = 9, 1995 = 10, 1996 = 11, 1997 = 12, 1998 = 13, 1999 = 14, 2000 = 15, 2001= 16, 2002 = 17, 2003 = 18, 2004 = 19, 2005 = 20, 2006 = 21, 2007 = 22, 2008 = 23, 2009 = 24, 2010 = 25, 2011 = 26, 2012 = 27, 2013 = 28, 2014 = 29, 2015 = 30, 2016 = 31, 2017 = 32, 2018 = 33, 2019 = 34, 2020 = 35, 2021 = 36, 2022 = 37, 2023 = 38, 2024 = 39, 2025 = 40, 2026 = 41, 2027 = 42, 2028 = 43, 2029 = 44, 2030 = 45, 2031 = 46, 2032 = 47, 2033 = 48, 2034 = 49, 2035 = 50, 2036 = 51, 2037 = 52, 2038 = 53, 2039 = 54, 2040 = 55, 2041 = 56, 2042 = 57, 2043 = 58, 2044 = 59, 2045 = 60, 2046 = 61, 2047 = 62, 2048 = 63, 2049 = 64, 2050 = 65, 2051 = 66, 2052 = 67, 2053 = 68, 2054 = 69, 2055 = 70, 2056 = 71, 2057 = 72, 2058 = 73, 2059 = 74, 2060 = 75, 2061 = 76,
DEAD by 2062 A.D. = 77

R.I.P.,
BR80 (1985 - 2062)

"The Way I Feel Inside"

Should I try to hide
the way I feel inside?
My heart...for you?
Would you say that you
would try to love me too?
In your mind
could you ever be
really close to me?
I can tell the way you smile.
If I feel that I
could be certain then
I would say the things I want to say tonight.

But 'til I can see
that you'd really care for me
I will dream
that someday you'll be
really close to me.
I can tell the way you smile.
If I feel that I
could be certain then
I would say the things I want to say tonight.

But 'til I can see
that you'd really care for me
I'll keep trying to hide the way I feel inside.

By: The Zombies